Courage

So many movie heroes have said that courage is not the absence of fear, but it is acting despite that fear.  It took a lot of courage to sit down in that chemo chair yesterday.  As I mentioned yesterday, I had to take a lorazipam to get through it without being a weeping mess. :)  Most of you know I'm a literature and history teacher, and I love words and like to play with them.  Darrin and I often joke about the book The Red Badge of Courage.  We aren't big fans.  One of my chemo drugs is nicknamed 'The Red Devil'.  Last night I decided I should be awarded 'The Red Devil Badge of Courage.'  It made us laugh.

Everyone enjoyed the Lego Movie last night.  Afterward, Darrin and I went over to Cedar Valley and walked for about 45 minutes.  It was too rainy to walk outside.  I felt a lot better when we were done.  This morning I'm doing pretty well.  My anti-nausea drug will give me extra energy for the next couple of days, so that is good.  I get my Neulasta shot in about an hour. (to stimulate blood cell growth so they can torture me, er, treat me, every 2 weeks instead of every 3). I hear it is pretty unpleasant and causes quite a bit of pain.  I'll probably check in again to night and let you know!  Prayers appreciated!